A Hole in One
Sometimes there’s nothing to do But sit with that emotion Twisting, turning, thoughts unfolding Leading nowhere. My head’s a mess, your love is rest I wish I was like you. You’re kind, you’re loving, you laugh a lot And nothing seems to bother You’re like a work of art unlocked And all the world’s your oyster. I only want to be someone that you would find on par A peer, accepting, self-sustaining, living in his truth Instead I find I’m just too anxious, given to complaining. I’m that toxic energy that you avoid with care I’m too dependent, far too needy and given to despair I wish I wasn’t who I am or where I find myself So if you find it in your heart to love me, run. Won’t bring you down. I judge, depressed, I’m sad a lot, I don’t know who I am I mourn the loss of who I was some many years ago All hope is lost, trapped in this box And nothing’s here to save me.